Apparently we can use skins now? What? I'm confused. Maybe it's a glitch...? nvm, I need to start reading. OTL
So imma use this skin for now, and probably tomorrow, make new one. 
My arting status: What's drawing again?
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Valentine Meme
3 min read
I'm copying Morgan because she's so cool (even though I wasn't tagged this looked fun so) 
It's been a long time since I've been tagged, and I find this better than just writing a journal!
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Valentine's Day Meme:
1. Are you single or taken?
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ Very much single
2. Chocolate or flowers?
(ღ˘⌣˘ღ) Flowers are lovely, especially colorful ones.
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
(─▽─) No.
4. Do you LIKE like anyone?
(⊙△⊙✿)Yes.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
щ(ಠ益ಠщ) Does it look like I get dates all the time.
6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
♥（ﾉ´∀`） A korean drama star
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
╮(─▽─)╭ No.
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
( ´△｀) Um, yeah apparently I have. He gave me anonymous poems the week of Valentine's and he revealed himself on Valentine's Day. Sweet gesture, really, but the guy wasn't
what I would say sweet...
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
「(°ヘ°) Because of the said event before, no. I think I could change my mind in the future, but that event totally turned my perspective on those kinds of things...
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
(¬､¬) I don't even believe in love at first sight so.
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
(；¬д¬) No.
12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
o(-`д´- ｡) Not since the fifth grade.
13. Do you like candy hearts?
(´∇ﾉ｀*)ノ You mean like Sweetharts then YES. omg
14. What is something you got last Valentines?
(￣︶￣) Air.
15. Is Valentines depressing?
≖‿≖ If you make it depressing.
16. How is your love life?
ಥ‿ಥ It's nonexistent.
17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ) No.
18. How many roses would you want to receive?
(◕‿◕✿) I honestly don't even care about roses; I like any flowers as long as they're colorful.
19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
⊙▽⊙ No.
20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
（ΦωΦ）I don't really care.
21. Who was your last Valentine from?
( ´_ゝ｀) The guy who gave me poems that one time.
22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ No one.
23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ No one.
24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ None.
25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ Not really?
26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ
none.
27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
( ﾟ,_ゝﾟ)
28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
( ﾟ,_ゝﾟ) No
29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
( ﾟ,_ゝﾟ) No
30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
ಠ_ಠ
31. What was the worst?
ಠДಠ
32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
ಥДಥ
My Valentine this year is:
Nothing ＿ﾉ乙(､ﾝ､)_
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This was just an excuse to play with emoticons carry on.
It's been a long time since I've been tagged, and I find this better than just writing a journal!
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Valentine's Day Meme:
1. Are you single or taken?
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ Very much single
2. Chocolate or flowers?
(ღ˘⌣˘ღ) Flowers are lovely, especially colorful ones.
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
(─▽─) No.
4. Do you LIKE like anyone?
(⊙△⊙✿)Yes.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
щ(ಠ益ಠщ) Does it look like I get dates all the time.
6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
♥（ﾉ´∀`） A korean drama star
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
╮(─▽─)╭ No.
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
( ´△｀) Um, yeah apparently I have. He gave me anonymous poems the week of Valentine's and he revealed himself on Valentine's Day. Sweet gesture, really, but the guy wasn't
what I would say sweet...
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
「(°ヘ°) Because of the said event before, no. I think I could change my mind in the future, but that event totally turned my perspective on those kinds of things...
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
(¬､¬) I don't even believe in love at first sight so.
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
(；¬д¬) No.
12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
o(-`д´- ｡) Not since the fifth grade.
13. Do you like candy hearts?
(´∇ﾉ｀*)ノ You mean like Sweetharts then YES. omg
14. What is something you got last Valentines?
(￣︶￣) Air.
15. Is Valentines depressing?
≖‿≖ If you make it depressing.
16. How is your love life?
ಥ‿ಥ It's nonexistent.
17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ) No.
18. How many roses would you want to receive?
(◕‿◕✿) I honestly don't even care about roses; I like any flowers as long as they're colorful.
19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
⊙▽⊙ No.
20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
（ΦωΦ）I don't really care.
21. Who was your last Valentine from?
( ´_ゝ｀) The guy who gave me poems that one time.
22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ No one.
23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ No one.
24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ None.
25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ Not really?
26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
(ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ
none.
27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
( ﾟ,_ゝﾟ)
28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
( ﾟ,_ゝﾟ) No
29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
( ﾟ,_ゝﾟ) No
30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
ಠ_ಠ
31. What was the worst?
ಠДಠ
32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
ಥДಥ
My Valentine this year is:
Nothing ＿ﾉ乙(､ﾝ､)_
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This was just an excuse to play with emoticons carry on.
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Chapter 463
1 min read
I CAN'T WAIT FOR RIRUKA AND RUKIA TO FIGHT. EEEAARGHHHH. THEY LOOK LIKE THEY CAN BE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS. AHHHHHHhhhh.
Oh btw school started. And it's hot. I'm lonely.
Oh btw school started. And it's hot. I'm lonely.
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It's a Journal right?
4 min read
So doesn't that mean I can put my feelings in this?
Well, if you don't think so, it's fine. Because I'mma put it in anyways
Lately, I've been tired. So, so tired of life. The roller-coaster ups & downs (mostly the downs). It's pissing me off. It's amazing how a minute earlier you were having fun & it was normal, and the next would be chaos and hell. I've known from experience. So maybe that's why I want every minute, every second, to be perfect and miasma free.
So.
Location: Kitchen Table
Topic: Idle conversation, occasionally complaining about J2 & J3.
Attending: Me, dad, mom, (code names: ) J2, and J3
So J3 made cookies. Set them on the table. Idle conversation kept going on for about 5-15 minutes. Then after J2 took a cookie, slipping out of the radar of J3. Then J3 noticed, and started yelling (I could tell he was like teasing/playful-ish maybe) at J3. And my parents started ranting/scolding on J3. And what came out of my parents' mouth are the: "Do you know what family is?", "Just leave him J2, I'll throw his stuff out at 7 PM.", "Do you want to end up like your dad?", "He's [J2] your only transportation".
I was being quiet the whole time. And when the question "Do you know what family is?" came up, J3 mumbles "...have the worst one.." Since he mumbled, my parents couldn't hear and asked him again, and J3 screamed out, "I HAVE THE WORST FAMILY EVER!" and ran out through garage. Honestly, that was the most dramatic thing I've ever seen IRL.
After that I said, "You guys did it the wrong way; you were too mean." And they replied with a "No! We were trying to help him!" & "With his attitude, why be nice?" And I ended up crying. It was just so sad.
I've seen J3 being treated so negatively, his mother is barely around, he has a fucked up son-of-a-bitch dad... I pitied him, a lot. I felt bad. He never really felt what it is to be loved and to be happy.
Result: J3 was just outside of the house, and J2 took J3 home with him.
Atmosphere: Miasma.
I was told after that J2 was treated horrible when his dad was still with his mom. The dad was always on J3's side. So the dad literally brainwashed J3 into a spoiled brat.
I felt horrible realizing that I gave J2 the cold shoulder, and treated both of them (J2 & J3) distantly.
I suck. A lot. My perfectionist disease made me a horrible person. I screw things up. I misunderstand. I'm ignorant of the deeper meaning. I suck. I suck a lot.
I was talking to J***h on facebook and I realized after a series of replies (from me), that I really DO suck. I'm awkward and serious. J***h is fun and talks about light subjects. And I kinda dampened my conversation with my awkwardness and seriousness (and maybe mysterious questions). So I'm stopping. Stopping from talking to him, maybe everyone on facebook.
I'm horrible. I try to fix things, but I end up making people feel bad.
Why can't I just let things be? Why can't I just leave things for there own dwelling? Why can't I just... be normal?
Right now I just want to stay away from J2 and J3 for a really long time. I'm going to stop interfering. It's so horrible. I'm so horrible.
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Sorry if I spammed your eyes/inbox or shit. I just have NADA friends with me right now.
Well, if you don't think so, it's fine. Because I'mma put it in anyways
Lately, I've been tired. So, so tired of life. The roller-coaster ups & downs (mostly the downs). It's pissing me off. It's amazing how a minute earlier you were having fun & it was normal, and the next would be chaos and hell. I've known from experience. So maybe that's why I want every minute, every second, to be perfect and miasma free.
So.
[ S C E N A R I O ]
Location: Kitchen Table
Topic: Idle conversation, occasionally complaining about J2 & J3.
Attending: Me, dad, mom, (code names: ) J2, and J3
So J3 made cookies. Set them on the table. Idle conversation kept going on for about 5-15 minutes. Then after J2 took a cookie, slipping out of the radar of J3. Then J3 noticed, and started yelling (I could tell he was like teasing/playful-ish maybe) at J3. And my parents started ranting/scolding on J3. And what came out of my parents' mouth are the: "Do you know what family is?", "Just leave him J2, I'll throw his stuff out at 7 PM.", "Do you want to end up like your dad?", "He's [J2] your only transportation".
I was being quiet the whole time. And when the question "Do you know what family is?" came up, J3 mumbles "...have the worst one.." Since he mumbled, my parents couldn't hear and asked him again, and J3 screamed out, "I HAVE THE WORST FAMILY EVER!" and ran out through garage. Honestly, that was the most dramatic thing I've ever seen IRL.
After that I said, "You guys did it the wrong way; you were too mean." And they replied with a "No! We were trying to help him!" & "With his attitude, why be nice?" And I ended up crying. It was just so sad.
I've seen J3 being treated so negatively, his mother is barely around, he has a fucked up son-of-a-bitch dad... I pitied him, a lot. I felt bad. He never really felt what it is to be loved and to be happy.
Result: J3 was just outside of the house, and J2 took J3 home with him.
Atmosphere: Miasma.
I was told after that J2 was treated horrible when his dad was still with his mom. The dad was always on J3's side. So the dad literally brainwashed J3 into a spoiled brat.
I felt horrible realizing that I gave J2 the cold shoulder, and treated both of them (J2 & J3) distantly.
My Realization
:I suck. A lot. My perfectionist disease made me a horrible person. I screw things up. I misunderstand. I'm ignorant of the deeper meaning. I suck. I suck a lot.
I was talking to J***h on facebook and I realized after a series of replies (from me), that I really DO suck. I'm awkward and serious. J***h is fun and talks about light subjects. And I kinda dampened my conversation with my awkwardness and seriousness (and maybe mysterious questions). So I'm stopping. Stopping from talking to him, maybe everyone on facebook.
I'm horrible. I try to fix things, but I end up making people feel bad.
Why can't I just let things be? Why can't I just leave things for there own dwelling? Why can't I just... be normal?
Right now I just want to stay away from J2 and J3 for a really long time. I'm going to stop interfering. It's so horrible. I'm so horrible.
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Sorry if I spammed your eyes/inbox or shit. I just have NADA friends with me right now.
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Huh. Skins.
3 min read
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Goals for the Summer!
2 min read
ReverseMirror made a Goal Journal, and I wanna do one too LOL. 
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Summer Goals on the Computer:
☐ To improve on digital coloring and lining. I suck at this D:
☐ To make that one-shot I've been having in my head for awhile.
☐ To make improvements in AyreMei group. Some how...
☐ To draw my drawings quicker and funner.
☐ To finish one epic video before highschool starts D:`
✖ To FINISH MY Voleros-Saga APPLICATION AND GET INNNNNNNNNNNNN.
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Summer Goals for IRL:
☐ To have fun before freshmhan year comes.
☐ Find out what I want to do in life.
☐ Talk with Clinton more.
☐ Beautify myself during summer.
☐ Try not to cry while getting braces.
☐ Get over my shynessssssssssssssssss.
☐ Some how find Eric and give him that promised goodbye hug I never gave him.
☐ Get Raven to play with me instead of her staying cooped up in her house.
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I WILL MARK THESE GOALS DOWN WITH A PRETTY SYMBOL, ☑. YEAH.
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Notes on these Achievements:
● (6.25.11): I didn't make an achievement yet
●(7.5.11): I MADE IT INNNNNNNNNNNN~ eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
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Summer Goals on the Computer:
☐ To improve on digital coloring and lining. I suck at this D:
☐ To make that one-shot I've been having in my head for awhile.
☐ To make improvements in AyreMei group. Some how...
☐ To draw my drawings quicker and funner.
☐ To finish one epic video before highschool starts D:`
✖ To FINISH MY Voleros-Saga APPLICATION AND GET INNNNNNNNNNNNN.
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Summer Goals for IRL:
☐ To have fun before freshmhan year comes.
☐ Find out what I want to do in life.
☐ Talk with Clinton more.
☐ Beautify myself during summer.
☐ Try not to cry while getting braces.
☐ Get over my shynessssssssssssssssss.
☐ Some how find Eric and give him that promised goodbye hug I never gave him.
☐ Get Raven to play with me instead of her staying cooped up in her house.
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I WILL MARK THESE GOALS DOWN WITH A PRETTY SYMBOL, ☑. YEAH.
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Notes on these Achievements:
● (6.25.11): I didn't make an achievement yet
●(7.5.11): I MADE IT INNNNNNNNNNNN~ eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
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